Living life as an intense male has its ups and downs. I get to play all over the world, I have endless energy and strength, and life becomes a game in the physical world. On the other hand, I get hurt, don´t understand subtle communications, and am constantly running in high gear.
Today I hiked deep into the canyon behind San Marcos. I followed local foot paths and skipped on rocks up the river. The scenery is absolutely epic. Surrounded by lush jungle, gushing waterfalls, chirping birds, blooming flowers, and looking back on a shimmering lake surrounded by volcanoes and mountains. Spending the day in silence reminded me of how fast my brain works. It wants to do something always, nonstop. It doesn´t even mind going over the same thing over and over again. Sometimes, my brain acts like a spinning record on repeat. Extremely frustrating.
Walking barefoot has helped me to stay present and keep my brain focused on the present moment. When my mind wanders, I stub a toe or slip on a rock. Quite simple. Perhaps this is why I have loved intense sports my whole life: they force me to be 100% in the moment.
Women tend to surrender quite easy. It happens many times in relationship, and this sometimes leads to the woman losing herself or merging with her partner. A woman´s ability to surrender naturally opens her up to the spiritual realm. For when we surrender and let go, our being is filled with synchronicity and bliss. Since I am a fiery male, I have had a tough time surrendering to anyone or anything. In fact, most of the time I have one hand on my sword ready for the unexpected. I am ready to let this go. I am ready to surrender. No expectations, no fear.
I go into the darkroom in less than two weeks. I am doing my best to prepare, mentally, emotionally and physically. I am excited to be by myself, to stretch, meditate and refresh my being. Physically, I am strong and healthy. I am eating mostly raw and staying conscious to my body´s interaction with the food that I am eating. Emotionally, I am doing my best. When I am surrounded by lightworkers, I am in bliss. When I go to the woods, I face the pain in my heart and ask my sweet mother earth to take it. All in all, the 2012 shift is happening, and it is all inside of you.
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